Rationale
In the task “To kill a mocking bird” by harper lee. Tom Robinson is
a coloured man that has been incriminated with the crime of raping a white
girl, crime he did not commit. In this diary entry I wanted to show how Tom
Robinson was spending his time in prison, how he reflected about his life,
about what could’ve gone different, about the injustice of life and the
injustice of the white society in this time. I also aim to reflect how Tom
Robinson feeling during this time, how he felt about Mayella Ewell, how he
wrote his feelings of anger towards the Ewell for the accusation they made
against him and dishonouring him by taking him to court. One last thing I
wanted to show is that Tom Robinson was not just a simple character he is something
greater, he is a symbol in the novel, he is the representation of the
discrimination towards coloured people in this time.
I’ve being thinking about
everything, about my wife about my family, about my life and everything I
could’ve done different. I’ve thought over and over again trying to understand
how could this happened to me, how could I heard that silly girl asking for my
help, that deceiving girl that I once felt sorry, she and her father had been
the worst thing that has happened to me in my hole life, they have turned all
the white people against me, making them think I’m a criminal, that I raped her
and beat her, but the thing is that it doesn’t matter if I didn’t do anything
it doesn’t matter what I say, it doesn’t matter what I do, because my word is
never going to be heard in this white society, my words will never win a white
man’s word because it’s the world we live in.
In one moment I felt hope, it was after Atticus talked to judge and
the jury I thought that he could changed the jury’s mind, that maybe… just
maybe he could’ve made the people of the jury see the truth that lay before
them and make them act by the law, but the opposite thing happened the jury
spend a lot of time thinking of my verdict but in the end the decision was that
I was guilty, I think they knew I was innocent yet they chose not by the
evidence, not by the law, they voted and declared me guilty because I’m
coloured man and a coloured man can’t beat a white man and the jury will never let
that happen and I don’t know if that makes me feel yet angry or disappointed or
maybe both ,because the evidence was in front of them and everyone knows I
could never do something like that to a girl or to anyone.
I’ve being remembering that I always tried to live my life as peaceful
and hearty as I could, always following what the law says, but my attempts to
achieve a life in a place where I thought more people could accept us failed
and what I dreamed that could’ve happened is never going to happen in a place
like this or in a time like this. In this moment I feel grateful because of
everything Atticus has done to probe my innocence he did everything he could,
I’m also terrified to know what is going to happen to me but Atticus said that
he was going to send and appeal to my case, but what if it doesn’t work.
This morning I’ve been sent to another jail only god knows where and
only god knows why, but I will not fall into despair I will not fail to probe
my innocence, I will recover that one thing that a man white or black can’t live
without….. Honour .
